I wish to be a vessel, used in whatever way God sees fit, to proclaim freedom to the captive, healing to the broken, and salvation to the lost. I know God's mercy and I know His grace. I've seen the work of His hands, giving hope when things looked hopeless. I want others to know that hope, too. I've felt His love when I didn't feel lovely. It is a love that surpasses all others....and is available to everyone willing to receive. I want you to feel this unconditional love, too. I'm going to try to live it out as best I can, using the music and voice He's given me to encourage you onward. That is my mission and my calling.
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I can't imagine that God would use me at all. I am a sinner saved by His grace.
When I was young, my family and I went to church every time the doors were open. Christianity was my heritage. It was what I was "supposed" to do; who I was "supposed" to be. I made a decision for Christ when I was seven, was baptized, attended every summer church camp, sang solos in the church choir, and never missed a revival. I guess I got lost in all that along the way.
Somehow, I made it through life, floundering between my Christianity and the enticements of the world. And somewhere in the midst of life, I lost my desire to sing. I got married and had three children before I realized that something was missing. Surely not! Wasn't this the fairytale life? - A handsome, strong husband and three perfectly formed, beautiful children.
In 1996, my world fell apart. Everything that I had known to be stable was crumbling out from under me. I was hit hard by the trials of life, yet found myself lacking - lacking in strength, love, patience, and commitment to the things I once held so dear. I wanted a way out; to get off the merry-go-round of life, so to speak.
That's when I found out just who God really is. In His mercy, He snatched me right out of the miry clay, scooped me right out of my sin, and changed my heart in an instant. I asked God to sit on the throne of my heart. It was then that I was filled with compassion and love in a way that I had never known before. I learned to give up my rights and offer sacrificial love for the first time. In it all, I had the oil of joy poured over me! See, the trials still came, the pain was still very real, but I had peace! There is no way to have peace and joy like that in the midst of unbearable circumstances by any human effort. It was only by the love, mercy, and gracious hand of Father God.
I understood my human weakness and my desperate need for God to save me from my self-destruction. My life has never been the same. And I won't ever go back there again! Amazingly, as God drew me back to Himself, I began to sing. Not just any songs, but new songs; songs of repentance and joy. He had given me a reason to sing again.
So, I end with the same statement that I began with: I can't imagine why God would use me at all, except that I am an incredible example of His mercy and grace. Mercy is not getting something we deserve, and grace is getting something we don't deserve. I have received both, and for that I am humbly grateful! Oh, yes, I am still a sinner saved by grace, but I am made worthy because of the blood of Jesus! And it is for Him alone that I sing.